Thoughts on Randomness

If I hadn't have wanted to hang out with my friends

and take an easy crip course that year in high school

I may never have been a speech therapist

If I hadn't have been sitting on the concourse that day reading

I may never have fallen in love with my first love

if I hadn't been in speech pathology studies

i wouldn't have met my second soul mate

and reconnected 2 old best friends from a generation before

if i hadn't liked guitar music, and photography

I may never have had the best escape from

my worst fear come true for a while

if i hadn't been on the computer that day

i may never have gotten married

if i hadn't taken french instead of spanish

I may never have the rich well of friendship

that has returned to me today in a time of great need

It seems that you should strive to know what you want

and make a goal of this thing and that

and work to get these things

to feel a level of accomplishment, safety and pride...

But if i hadn't simply been present in the most mundane

and insignificant moments in my life

I wouldn't have experienced the greatest joys of my soul.

And i wouldn't be who i am today.

Someone who:

Tries the best she can to be kind to people

To find joy in every minute

may seem haphazard a lot of the times

Has experienced greater joys than most people ever dream to touch

has lived through more losses in the first half of her life than most have

can stand up and say: "i'm not sorry for the way i am, I'm standing with the God of Love inside me and all around me, and who knows if I keep my eyes open, my ears astute and my heart open with Love, everything will be Good and as it is supposed to be...Random as it may Seem."

..... Just my Thoughts....

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