Thoughts on Deliberateness

If I hadn't chosen to stick up for what I thought was right

on a summer job one year as a kid, I wouldn't have

something really strong to feel good about today

If I hadn't chose to be cool instead of responsible on a band trip

in high school, I might be married to a man today.

If a few dozen hating fanatics hadn't deliberately flown those planes

into the World Trade Towers that day, I wouldn't be loved so much

for who I truly am -- for I may have never come out and told the

truth about who I loved.

If I hadn't chosen to follow my heart twice in the last 10 years,

I would never know what it means to love, to lose, to Dream

and to Grow Wise

If I hadn't chosen to leave my first job for a risky involvement

in a new start up program, I wouldn't have learned to think

more for myself and to see the world in my own different way.

If I hadn't chosen to buy my first house, I wouldn't have learned

how to nest, how to mother myself, how to grow roots, how to harvest

the fruits of my labor or how to be a patient gardener and a good neighbor.

As much as I appear to "Sway in the Wind" (insert Jodi Foster as Nell)

I have made some definite, deliberate decisions and choices in my life.

And each one has led me to where I stand today.

Decisions have historically been hard for me. But when faced with

a choice or hard decision, I usually prepare well by gathering all my

educational resources, I weigh the pros and cons and then I listen to my Gut.

When I look back to all the big and all the seemingly insignificant decisions

in my life, I realize how so very important each decision is in developing the

Path of your life. But, gladly, I don't think of that fact when I'm making a

decision, or I think I would be a nervous wreck!

....Listening to my Gut.....seemingly insignificant....so very important....developing the

Path of your Life....Nervous Wreck !!!

Deliberate Randomness .... i think that's how I see it .... !