Kind of Thinking

'...How do I feel this good, sober?...'

'...I'm learning to be Brave in my Beautiful Mistakes...
Oh, I've felt that fire and I've been Burned.
But I wouldn't trade a thing for What I've Learned.
I wouldn't trade the Pain for What I've Learned...'

'...Thinkinking that Bliss is on the other side of This...'
and that
'...all I need[ed] was a compass and a willing
accomplice...'

Was the Wrong Kind of Thinking.

It was the peeling back of Layers ...
So many Layers
'til only my Strong Soul
Lay open and raw,
Exposed to the elements,
to be Examimed,
Questioned
and Tested
for its Strength
its Passion
and its Need.

'...When it's good, then it's good...It's so Good,
'til it Goes Bad...
'til you try find the You that you Once had...'

That me wasn't True enough to Stay.
She was stripped away in those layers
And only the real Spirit of Me Remains,
Filling up this Shrinking Ego and body
with Life and Love
So Bright ...

And that's '...how...I feel this good, Sober...'


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Quoted Lyrics by PINK, "Sober", "Crystal Ball"