Doing What I Need to Do ... For Me

Some would say that is All That I Do
(do things only for myself)

But I see how I've Traded Myself in
For Love

The Love I felt,
The Love I gave,
The Love I received,
The Love I shared.

The Love in all was Real
But I Discounted Myself with Choices
With Whom I could Never See myself to Fruition.

Why does
Finally Doing The Right Thing
Feel so Isolating and Freeing at the same time .... ??

I couldn't be Less than I am Any Longer
It Literally almost Killed me ....

"... but my Life wasn't worth all the Pain
that my Death would have caused ... so Life Chose me After All ..."

Being Less of Who and What I am
Would have been like asking
You to be Right Handed
and
You to be Full of Trust

I can't be less Complex than God Made me ...
I have to Honor how it Is that He created.

The funny thing is:
In your own subtle ways,
You Both tried to make me Feel bad
For Loving you the way I knew How.
You Both were attracted to my Complexities, in the beginning
You both knew that my Weak spot was in wanting to Please
And make You Feel Ok.

But in the Long Run,
We are who we are
And on the day-to-day,
It just was never quite right.
It didn't mean the Love wasn't Real or True

I just made the mistake Long Ago
To Believe
That Love could Overcome all things ....

Well, that's in the Realm of the Divine
And, We, all too Human.

Wishes of Peace and Love, as Always, in All Ways and For Always .....
Jacqueline, JQ and Jac

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